Question: My grandmother has a difficult and tough temper, plus her old age has made her more difficult to deal with. I have a lot of grudges against her. What can I do about it? I can't forgive her or apologize!
Answer: That's why we need help from God: we can't do much on our own.
It is clear that you have to deal with an old, sick person. When people grow old, they often become unbearable and intolerable. You are a Christian, so you have to forgive and ask for forgiveness to keep the peace in your heart. Your grandmother was sent to you by God to teach you how to live with God and to fight bitterness and resentment that make your life so difficult.
Start praying for your grandmother regularly. Read the Akathist to the Mother of God the Softener of Evil Hearts and ask Her to grant you love. Be sorry for her, overcome your old, sinful self, and you will feel that you get closer to God. You need to work hard in the battle against sin for a better life.
Of course, you're going to have many excuses like, "I can't live with her. I'm fed up with her", but it seems that you're your grandmother's closest relative. She is going to leave for eternal life soon. Try to vanquish your sin and help your grandmother to calm down and leave for eternal life in peace. This is a very big deal. I think that if you do so, if you ask God to give you strength, God will grant it.
Archpriest Andrey Lemeshonok
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