Question: So far, I am annoyed by my minds. How can I do to listen to our God's Will? I feel the further I go; the more serious I'm getting lost.
Answer: Our minds often wander and try to lead us away from God. It's like someone who confesses their sins and seems to repent in the evening, but then rushes back saying, "I've remembered something else," and even after confessing, they say, "Wait, Father, there's more." This can go on for a lifetime. Such scrupulousness is a trap. There are different extremes, and the enemy, seeing our tendencies toward such scrupulousness, convinces us that we are unworthy. Some people live for years with grave sins they are too ashamed to confess. Imagine the trap: they take communion regularly and seem to confess but never fully reveal their sins.
Recently, I encountered an elderly churchgoer who had difficulty attending services due to her age. I've known her for a long time. She suddenly began revealing things she had never mentioned before. After she confessed, she visibly changed, feeling much lighter. Imagine, she had been attending church and taking communion for years while harbouring this sin out of foolish shame. But God guided her to confess it eventually - praise be to God! Otherwise, she might have ended up in hell despite her constant presence in church and service to it.
